when will it end? never.

pretty much^

has anyone noticed how hard school is? hahaha. but honestly. i know it's really important and everything, but it requires so much energy. i don't even have time to think anymore unless it's about eutrophication or logarithms.

i'm one of those people that just assumes i can handle a lot more that i can. i don't even realize how ridiculous i'm being when i think i can add on something extraordinarily difficult. it's like i'm walking around with a bunch of bricks on my back and every time i see something i think would be cool to do, i put in on top of the bricks. and it's cool. but for like a tenth of a second. and then i just fall over.

GAHHHHHHH!!!!!

i needed to scream, sorry.

i literally can't take this pressure. getting to this break will be such a relief. for the first two days. starting december 26th, i'll go into hyper-speed trying to work on my honors eng 2 stuff for next semester. and work on my capstone paper and presentation for biology. and work on my photography final because it's due the day we get back. and my portfolio. and study for finals in acc alg 2, social studies and bio.

yay for education!

i don't really understand why my parents and teachers and friends keep telling me the pressure will be off of me soon. when is soon? next semester? well, noooo because i have hard classes. next summer? sure, for a couple months before junior year, the most stressful year of all starts. what about the end of high school? okay, all the high school drama will be done but there's still the fact that i'll be living alone and going to college and working sixteen thousand times harder. there's probably never again going to be a time in my life when i'm not stressed. bc after college comes life. that's probably the most stressful thing of all.

i am ready for christmas tho. i loooooooove christmas. and it will be a relief to at least not have to go to school everyday, even if the workload is the same.

huh. i guess i actually cheered myself up. fancy that.

k bye. i must go watch home alone now and laugh my head off. but only after filling a bowl of ice cream sky high with chocolate peanut butter cup.

:) --colette